As you’ve probably figured out by now, I survived the psych screen.  The Psych was actually in a house, not an office.  The room we used for the session had built in bookshelves that I would kill to have.  The Psych, spent 45 minutes talking to just me and another 30-40 minutes talking to all three of us.  Then, I got to leave.  I did not have to take the MMPI again.  I don’t know how long she talked to my IPs though I was a little sad that I didn’t really get to talk to just them without the psych at all, I don’t’ get to see them much.

I don’t know if we passed and got the okay but I’m going to assume we did because no one called to tell me otherwise.  I figure it’s like test results with your doctor’s office.  If they call you about routine tests, there’s probably a problem.  If they don’t call, everything’s fine.  Makes you chew your nails wondering if they’ll call but eventually you relax and stop worrying because if there was a problem, they would have called by now.  I’m still mildly concerned but I’m setting it aside because it’s done and there’s no point in stressing over it now. 

Afterwards, I went to see M, the psych major.  This semester in one of her classes, she’s administering psych assessments like the MMPI and some other tests.  We found a used book store to prowl and some other small shops.  The we had dinner in an Irish Pub (excellent food!) and ice cream at Maggie Moo’s.  Anyway, she is the talkative sort and told me all about the different tests and let me see examples (which she’s probably not supposed to do) but it did give me  something to ponder on the long drive home. 

Psych is tomorrow! 
I've been avoiding the caffeine but I'm still wound so tight that I'm afraid I'll snap.  I can get through this.  I need to find my centered zen place.  

Why am I so stressed about this?  I was nervous about the medical, wondering if they'd tell me that I weighed too much to be a good egg donor.  But I wasn't truely sleepless and terrified like I am now.  I think fear of psych is fear of the unknown.  I knew what to expect from the medical and I'm comfortable with all of the procedures.  I don't know what to expect of the Psych and it's driving me loony tunes.  Which, I should add, is not a good state of mind to be in for a psych eval. 

My period is (as of today) 5 days late…or maybe just 3 days.  My last cycle was 32 days but still…   

What’s going on with my body?  Normally, I would not care.  I have a tubal ligation so I can’t be pregnant.  For the first time in my life, a late period isn’t causing panic because I feel safe in that at least.  I’m still worried a bit though. 

How will this affect August/September?  Does the late period mean there’s a problem with my reproductive system somewhere?  We’re counting on my system to be top notch and functioning properly.  Or is just one of those odd occurrences?  Late periods do happen occasionally.  And my periods are a bit longer now than they were even 2 years ago.  They’re averaging around 30 days.  So perhaps this is just a normal variation.  I could induce the period…but right now, I’m in “wait and see” mode.  If I induce it, I won’t know how long it would have stayed away. 

Deep Breath Ginger.  You’re blowing this way out of proportion.  You’re really just stressed about Psych and stress can make a period late.  Simple as that. 

If you’re having a visit from Aunt Flo, please tell her to come visit me so I can stop worrying!

Psych is Friday.  I'm all tied in knots worrying about it.  I get more and more tense the closer it gets.  I don't know why.  It's not like the nice doctor is going to be mean to us or anything.  Just some time sitting and talking.  How can that be bad?  I don't think I'll need to re-take the MMPI but even if I do, so what?  I've passed them before with no trouble.  Psychs aren't scary!  How long did I work in a counseling office?  Almost 2 years.  And two of my friends are aiming for their Master's in Psychology.  They're not scary.  Nothing to be worried about.  But I am.  Psych just plain stressed me out.  

I opted not to go out to dinner with my IPs after the appointment.   Instead, I'll do dinner with M, someone I've known since high school.  When the psych is done, I'll probably be silly giddy with relief.  M will ground me and let me talk and talk.  She'll understand (and analyze since she's one of the psych majors).