Uh oh...

Baby C's mom took her for an RSV test and a chest x-ray around 1pm. She hasn't posted an update yet.  I really just need to stop reading her page.  I'm going to drive myself nuts.  Is it better to have these updates and learn the little bits of her life?  Or is it better to remain oblivious and not worry?  Does the comfort of knowing when things are good outweigh the worry and 'mom reaction' of knowing she's sick and not being able to do anything? 

Intellectually, I know I'm not the parent.  It's not my responsibility to take care of her when she's sick.   With munchkin, when she's sick, I just feel so bad, like I should be able to help even when I know that medically, I'm doing all I can.  Even if I can't change things, I have to try.  Instinct, not intellect.  And it doesn't go away.

I wish that I could say that I'm content to sit here and type and let Baby C's parents deal with it like she was the child of any of my friends.  But I'm not.  I'm going quietly out of my mind.  And it's my own fault because I like the good updates so I just have to deal with the bad ones.