A Mood

Ginger is feeling forgotten tonight.  Just sad and alone.  They went out without asking me to go.  And I may not have gone.  I probably wouldn't have gone.  Because I'm a responsible adult with a child and because I just don't enjoy that type of thing...but they didn't ask.  I guess if you say no often enough, they stop asking.  

It's funny how excitement can turn to indifference and happiness to hurt.  It's no ones fault.  Just the ebb and flow of a Geminii's moods.  Yesterday, it wouldn't have bothered me or even suprised me.  Today, it's a painful jag.  And tomorrow, I probably won't care anymore.  

Tonight though, I'm cold and sad and alone.  I just want it to be warm again, and bright.  When I get up in the morning to go to work, the sun hasn't even considered rising.  I work in a place where it's a 2 minute walk and a flight of stairs to find a window not in an Exec's office.  And when I leave work, the sky is already a dim grey even though it's mid-afternoon.  And in the night, I can see the casino lights reflected off of the clouds.  But it's not sunlight.  It's not the moon and stars.  

Tomorow, I'll make an effort to find the sun or if there's no sun to be found, at least a little bit of warmth.  That much I can do.  Tomorrow, I may not even feel it's necessary, but I'll find it anyway.  It will be good for me.